hello


everybody is flying out

im left behind again

but nevermind because in approximately 11 days it will be my turn

!!!!


ok bye busy

breathee

i just want a relaxing day today


where i will eat a meal in peace
and not have my gastric work up right after it


do my shopping in a relaxed and leisurely manner
and browse the aisles of my favourite bookshop

pick a title or two while i bask in the evening light by the sea


im going to lalaport by bus

i never liked the bus system in japan but since i am going to relax today

i will wait for the bus while i soak in whatever i have missed for a while



im prolly going to have a coconut jam sandwich and a cuppa caffeine at yakun

and if any movie slot fits

i will go for a movie too



my stomach is really punishing me now for all the booze last night

but today

i will RELAXXXXXXXX




and accidentally leave my　携帯電話　at home


IT HAS NOT STOPPED RINGING OFF THE HOOK

BECAUSE THEY NEED A REPLACEMENT



and after abusing myself for so long

they need to find another victim



need some summer clothes
29 is drawing near



will be back later

hopefully relaxed



im really tense now

really i was fitting all sorts of plans in my head just now

thinking if i shud go to lalaport and abab

but in the end

i told myself to go slow

dont get so tensed


if i dont feel happy with my shopping then i shall go to abab



actually i just want to go to yokohama
i wanna see my liken baby

i missssssss her

she prolly is one of the rare friends i have who lives on the same wavelength as i do









will be back with seashots

really

i have too many questions running around my head


and my sensible self shouts

hey girl

you think too much


but the unbridled soul within me shouts even louder

dont try

just do



i have been having thoughts about

living in every single major city in the world for some time


i want to experience life

not complete everything on a humans to do list


like get a degree or even end up with a phd

then get a job get married


its not absurd

i could even like such a life

but i know that this is not what i want


i will burst at the seams if i were to live the correct life







i cant have the best of both worlds

i cant expect my bf to accept that i want to run around the whole world

coming to japan was the best thing to date i have done


the people i met

the things i did


wouldnt trade it for anything else

not even a million bucks




maybe its true you know

when adults tell u

you are too young for love

it could be true


im saying it could because i could regret it when i am 28 and single

but now i need to think

long and hard




stressed

my period is here and i have this hormonal induced migraine

took me long enough to figure that out


i dont know why other people gain weight during their period
but i lose weight

i do number 2 alot when i have my period too

maybe thats why

on saturday i had

a coffee in the morning

and some rice in the evening

actually i shud say because the food sucked

i just dont want to eat even if i am hungry


on sunday

even better


a coffee

one red bean bun

and nothing else because it was busy in the shop



today which is monday


i ate a cup of cereal with milk

some peanuts



urgh


sleeping hungry everynight

..



ok bye hope i have better food tml

the early bird gets the worm


in a way i guess


today i woke up before noon which is an amazing feat considering that it is the weekday


paid for my air ticket

called the salon to book appts for me and 2 friends

settled some personal matters

and got sick


very clever


i am allergic to pollen and apparently it is almost the sakura season

which i am very glad to announce that i will be able to avoid

apparently humans who are allergic to pollen are not necessary allergic to all kinds of flower pollens

but rather a certain few

and i am so lucky that i am allergic to sakura blossoms

-.-


i tried to stay away last season but it was still horrible

i really should have taken the vaccination when i could but its too late now







im coughing

wheezing

sneezing

teary


and i have blurred vision

oh well the world becomes prettier this way anyway





hahahahahahha


toodles

good morning

using my newest contact case
bought in singapore for me by mchan



i cant wait for 29th march to come so i can getaway for a little



yesternight i managed to sleep from 12.11am to 2.45am

which i woke up and drank some water and proceeded to continue sleeping until 11.45am

and i slept somemore

woke up again at 13.16

and then finally woke up at 14.30

thats a whooping 14hours and 19mins



work has been getting so repetitious and boring that i find myself going

think money think money

and i get by




recently because i really hate the ugly black smears under my eyes due to my eyeliner

i stopped using black eyeliner

and amazingly it made my eyes look bigger and rounder

so im prolly gonna stop using eyeliner for good


plus guess what

it has been trendy lately in japan to not use bottom eyeliner

and instead to use false bottom eyelashes pasted far away from your real lash line


to be honest

im not too keen about such makeup because im not a gyaru

this kind of make up only works for models on magazines and not for real girls with real lives

so its pretty stupid to me


my japanese guy friends actually hate false eyelashes

go figure


which is pretty unsurprising really

its like a girl putting oranges in her bra and a guy a banana in his pants

then when all the clothes go off

the guy and the girl just sits on the couch and watch tv



make up should enhance

not hide flaws

hiding your flaws with make up is like the worst thing you can do

i dont ever want to scare my boyfriend if i remove my make up in front of him



and i have seen enough japanese girls to know that

they look really scary without make up

just go to the onsen and sentos




the make up industry is pretty screwed up

one day i saw this lipstick like thingy which says

that it will cover up make up smears

.......................


u want me to use more artificial gunk to cover the artificial gunk that smeared on my face?

are u kidding me



but its really popular here and its flying off the shelves off matsumoto kiyoshi


let your skin breathe for goodness sake




ok im gonna try to sleep now

goodnight

steam blister burn

after the giant blister popped i took out my camera to capture this moment in history

ok lame joke i know

one week after that fateful day when she burnt herself by the steam



its considerably alot less scary looking compared to the bloody days where flesh and blood mangled with cotton wool and antiseptic as she tore at the bits of skin

ok too much details



good night

cant wait to get over the 2 long days of work

feeling down

i realised that i stopped writing about japan in a way

theres so much i wanna share


will start tml when i wake up